I'm sorry Lorna

Submitted by Lorna, Oct 9, 2018 at 09:36

Hello, you got it so right , I'm giving up on everything and I feel I'm better off with him ! Lina I know it's wrong to feel this way but I can't live without him ..my heart tells me he loves me my head said give it a try !
I've told him people are worried for me before but he said he will look after me !
I'm so tired of everything and I had therapy and she said if I feel I need to be with him then I should try !
I'm 39 and cannot have kids which he knows about and accepts although I feel sorry for both of us !
I have a good job starting back in January with the BBC and our aim is to get him back here for that time ! I will stay there until he comes back ! If he is not given a visa I don't know what we will do !
My therapist said I have reactional depression and aniexty and as I suffered childhood trauma I need therapy for abandonment issues hence why I feel I need to be with him !
I fly tomorrow from Gatwick I'm scared to go but I'm more scared to lose him !
I sound weak I know but I'm not I just fell in love with a man online! I'm not ugly or fat I'm not desperate for a man ..I just fell in love with him !
I'm sorry to everyone on here I've let you all down but he just always found me and in the end it's easier to meet him !
Please forgive me ..

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