Help.. Am I going crazy??!!

Submitted by Becs (United Kingdom), May 16, 2013 at 19:04

I have been on this forum before and told my story of my Egyptian man which is no horror story or scam... Well to my knowledge.. But I feel at a complete loss and need some help, guidance, reassurance or anything as I feel I am losing my mind.

I am only about 5 years older than him and met about a year and a half ago.. Fell in love head over heels and moved out to Egypt to live with him.. He did treat me like a princess, never left my side to go out with friends always included me and took me out.. But after 8 months or so he did begin to show his jealous side, I couldn't talk to make colleagues, had to tell him where I was going etc..

Real life kicked in and the rose tinted glasses came off.. He never did wrong was just himself but the country and culture was now worlds away from what I know. I panicked and started to doubt my future there as I was used to nice holidays, freedom, independence etc etc and wanted the same for any dependent children.. I decided to leave Egypt in January this year.. After only 2 wks I got myself a job paying a good salary but did keep in touch with him..he is so loving and attentive and calls me every day in Skype and sends me messages every day on my mobile.. Offers to send me money to go back out there and hopes after a few months I move back to live with him. He never asks for money and when I lived there he never took money from me.. He paid for everything..

So now I am back in the uk and not found any decent blokes.. Of course I am wondering why the hell I have left him when there were many times he made me happy.. But I am forgetting the jealousy and possessive side and the fact my children would have to be Muslim and that life would be hard there in Egypt.. But am I potentially throwing away a good decent honest man who seemingly loves me so much and that I don't doubt.. I am so scared to let him go but also wary of my future.. It's not about trust just the huge culture and stability of Egypt. I feel like crying most of the time as so lost in what to do... He has never used me for anything and yet I left him which now feels so harsh!! And I miss him.. If anyone can offer any help I would appreciate it..

Thanks becs

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