Update on my young Egyptian man

Submitted by Cindy (Canada), May 14, 2013 at 12:11

Thanks so much for your words of encouragement! It means SO much to me, as it gives me more strength as the days go by. I did tell him two days ago that I have decided to move to Egypt to live with him FOREVER! I said it to see what he says about it, as I need to see his reaction to this. His answer back was short and sweet. He said he was so happy about it, and what made me change my mind all of a sudden? Who have I been talking to that made me change my mind? He is a very smart man, he seems to be suspicious, he obviously has played this game before??!! Maybe not, but he seemed suspicious for sure! And..........I haven't heard from him since!!

I have sent him a few more emails, asking him to at least answer me back, as this is a major life change for me, and I would like to talk about it. No answer.......so my email to him today is that he either emails me by the end of today, or I am deleting him for good and it is over. I need to get the strength to do this! I am hanging onto the last of my feelings for him, clinging to that thread of hope, that maybe, just maybe, he actually does trully love me. I know deep down inside he does not love me, if he does, its for the wrong reasons, for his personal gain. And you have told me so, and I have heard all what people are saying on here, but I need to accept this for what it actually is. A lie. A big lie, crying me eyes out here, and this is hard to accept. Never, never again will I let anyone snowball me like this, a very painful life lesson, one I never want to live through again!!

This was so hard, it almost took what was left out of me, but somewhere deep inside, is a strength, a strength that is coming from my soul, a hand of Jesus, grabbing me before I sink. Yes, its got to be Jesus, because I don't think its me. Even if he does respond to me, I must see past the lovely words, I must find the courage and self love to be able to tell him its over. On a good note, I did go out for coffee with a nice guy in my town last night, and wow, what a breath of fesh air that was! A normal guy! Who actually ended up really liking me and wants to see me again! And he is my age and set in life, we have same things in common, and he is honest with me. We both are up front with each other, and we talked for three hours straight! We only stopped when the worker at the coffe shop said "sorry guys, we are closing now". Next date will be out to dinner. If things go well with my new friend, just imagine how thankful I will be, to be able to break free from the grasp this Muslim man has over me! Thank God he lives in another country, as you can imagine what he may do to me if he found out and lived here. I had to do this, I had to force myself to get back out there and meet someone close to me and my age as well. And I am thankful I have. This will give me more strength to be able to cut that last thread and move onto something more healty, more trustworthy, more REAL!! Please keep emailing me, as this is what I need to get myself through this very emotinal time. One part of me feels sorry for my Muslim man, young and living in a country that is so poor, and so backwards in their beliefs. While the world around them is evolving, they are stuck in the ancinet Egyptian times. And a part of me will always always love him. But.......there is a part of me that knows that this is wrong in so many ways. More for me than for him. I have learned alot about the culture there, and I am dumb founded! I am stunned at the sheer volume of women on here who have been tricked and deceived by these men in these countries. All I can say is that one day, one day they will all have to answer to the same God that we as well worship. And when that time comes, there will be alot of shocked souls. We who have suffered through the heart aches of their lies, will have a special place in Heaven one day, and it will be good! Thank you in more ways than I can say here, for helping me to take these blinders off, and see this for what is really is. His personal gain, and the loss of myself, God has a better plan for me, and God will deal with the other. Bless you all :)

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