To Anna

Submitted by Irene (Denmark), Apr 3, 2012 at 03:01

Dear Anna,

The only way to heal is to find answers to all your questions. Why did he do that, Is it me who made him stop loving me, Does he realize what he is doing to me and our family, what was real and what was not, and so on and so on... All these questions you wake up with every single morning and do not leave your mind eve for a single second, no matter what you are doing in the day. Anna, you need to accept that the answer is one and it is very hard to accept it because the truth is not easy to be admitted. But its the truth only that will set you free! And the truth Anna is HE IS A FAKE! He is a SOCIOPATH and as I am reading your posts I can clearly figure this out. He is not like you and me, not like the normal people. He cant feel the same, he doesnt have emotions, all he is able to show is only well trained mimics. Anna, he doesnt care if you will catch him or not because he can not understand the consequences for your heart and soul, because he was born without conscious. And its nothing to do with the way you will behave with him, even if you are on the top of the best woman for him, that would not be enough, because he needs constant stimulation to get rid of the boredom he is stuck in. Its just the way his brain is constructed. He is a very sick person Anna and he will treat the same way every next woman in his life. This kind of people see us as objects only, to provide all we could for them, a matter of Supply. They are not capable of being faithful , to love, to live honest life, NO, NO, NO. Anna, another prove is he brought her to your places. He doesnt even have ideas how to cheat on you, he is copy / pasting all he has learned from you and the time spent with you. He is EMPTY form inside and he will never assume what you are going through as a result of his little games for the reason he doesnt care to, because this is another planet for him.

Its sooo damn hard to admit that you do not mean to him what he means to you. That he is different than you and could never understand your needs and your idea for a family happy life. Because ITS ALL ABOUT HIM. And it will always be. If the things are not happening on his terms, forget about him, he doesnt want you any more. HAHAHAHA, sooo familiar. PATHETIC LOSERS. Anna you just need to let the time to heal the wounds and the heart to accept what your mind already knows perfectly well!!!

its no way back, repeat this to yourself every morning. Remind yourself what he has done. Make a list and put it under your pillow with all his s..t. See a counsellor or start therapy, work on your self esteem, visualize every day what you want to achieve in future , what life you dream of, not what you have lost because you lost sth you have never truly had. Spend your energy to help yourself, to heal and to make a better life for you and your kids than to feel sorry for what you had with this jerk. He was smart in making you believe in what you needed to believe in. You are so much better than who he is thinking you are. Just show him who you are. You can stand for your rights and needs and you will! He can go to hell and he will. Karma will bring his hell here on the earth sooner than you can imagine.

After the grief you will be angry. You could be in denial somehow, still. Let the anger to shake you, to conquer all of you. Then you will hate him and try to forgive him to be able to continue your life without any emotions left for him. Take all the steps Anna. Take little steps, take it slowly, give yourself time to experience all the feelings erupting, do not put them on stand by and just accept the truth, it is your fault he is a sick person and can not deal with living the life the proper, normal way. And count your blessings Anna you are divorcing a 100% dysfunctional, mentally abnormal, pathetic creator, not a man who is worth it. Take this trash out of your life and be straight and tough to show him he cant fool you any more and he will never ever have the honor to have even a piece of you. Time will help your heart, mind and memory to get rid of him as well. You will heal Anna, we are all on the way to end this rough path.

I know you need to figure him out first. Then you will know what you were dealing with. The only thing giving me relief when I am in a deep down is this blog and another one. LOVEFRAUD.COM. Read it Anna. I find it sooooooo helpful. I have found answers to all my questions there. And I have no doubt you will do too. He is a sociopath he you need to get good knowledge of what personality he is, so you will be have better tools to win the battle with your internal conflicts.

There are so many people out there for you. Talk and ask and share with us! You are having one of the hardest stages of your life. If you win you will receive the big gift God is having for you and your kids. Close that ugly door and you will find a wonderful one, waiting for you to open it!

Big HUGS, Anna, Hope you are strong and you are already walking your way out of this hellish marriage!!!

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