Time to let it go....

Submitted by Lana(USA) (United States), Aug 8, 2017 at 22:01

Hello Everyone

My last vacation at the beach gave me enough time to think about the last events,and changed me in some way...

Watching those beautiful sunsets,listening to the whispers of the ocean waves,when there were not one soul at the beach,except dolphins and birds,surrounded by wildflowers.
Summer starry nights,crickets songs...where you lose the sense of reality and dissolve, become one with the nature,and forget everything else...
When you do not have to rush anywhere,when you do not expect anyone,when you do not check your phone every five minutes,when you sleep well at night- at last,and have enough time to slow down and look around...and then -look inside yourself...
Once-I felt like the door,that was smashed so hard,that the key got broken inside the lock...so no one can enter because it is locked, and no one can use a new key to open it,because of the piece of old key still stuck inside...

I will never be the same person again,a person I used to be..."people treat you that way because you allow them to",so from now on - I will not let people to enter into my life that easily,when one person breaks you apart,another one feeds of your pieces,takes advantage of you at your weakest moment...
It is time to let go of that illusion of someone , who never existed on a first place...time to stop expecting things from someone who is simply incapable of it....someone who said how important I am to him and his life ,but forgets your birthday...
Beautiful,but meaningless words are only words ...empty promises...I felt tired always being right about something I wish I was wrong-again and again....time to say good bye to all of this...and set myself free.

The ocean whispered to me that "playing with hearts of others he condemns himself to eternal loneliness and one day it will hit him hard"...
As for me-no more sad songs on my MP3 player,no more unfulfilled dreams.Life is full of new fascinating things ,I am open to,so pity party is over...

I've learned that calmness from the ocean,from the reflections of the evening sun in the eyes of my little guardian angel,my son,while we were picking a seashells at the beach, from light summer evening breeze.

Life has tendency to repeat the lessons we did not learn from the first time.I am one lifetime older now...well-one illusion less too....but bad dreams never meant to be repeated...

If someone asked me :"Will you be willing to trade your innocence for the experience and wisdom?"...I will not be able to answer that,but one thing I am sure of -I will never be the same again....

Hugs
LANA

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