Help me please

Submitted by Adeline (South Africa), Mar 16, 2017 at 04:24

Hello ladies.

I am a young woman (22 years old) who is very vulenerable due to parents having marriage problems. Throughout my childhood I began to develop doubts about marriage and if something like true love really exists. A year ago I met this Egyptian man who lives in my country and has a visa to work/study here. In Egypt he was an officer in the army. He is 26 years old. He talked to me everyday and confessed his undying love for me and soon I forgot about my insecurities about true love and marriage. This year he started to visit me. We never go out we only stay at my flat and talk. I made a big mistake because I followed my emotions and lost my virginity to this man.

He is Moslem and I am Christian and when I asked him why he allowed himself to do the deed he just replied that it is because we love each other and we cannot stop our feelings. He is well educated because he speaks English fluently and has a degree in bussiness management. He is also very religious (goes to Mosque every Friday and makes Salah every day - which contracdicts what he is doing with me). Since the first deed that we did he came by every third/second day then we did it.

I hate myself for this it's been going on like this for a month.I can't talk to family and friends about this since they will only guilt trip me as I already feel like killing myself because of all of this. He wants to marry me very soon and talks about having a lot of children. I met his bestfriend and some of his family members too.

Can one of you ladies please please please be my mother for a few mins and help me to make a rational decision because I am in a very vuneralble state of mind. Do I have to leave him or continue with this? Where will it end? If you would like more details to help me better or to understand my situation better, please do tell so that I can post an update. This is unlike me. I am normally someone who has control over her life.

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