Heart Broken too

Submitted by Broken Angel (Australia), Dec 8, 2013 at 18:47

Yep I'm the same, the worst part is feeling confused.

Although I'm not sure exactly what we are at this point? Because at the beginning we never really took things seriously, although he seem intense in pursuing me. So I thought maybe he wants to get serious with me?

Now I don't even know if he's even interested at all due to his lack of response and hardly keeping in touch anymore :(

Especially at the time when I am serious to commit and never got a reply back whether if he wants the same?

I feel like an idiot being played, although he's the bigger idiot for messing with my heart and head.

Now all I have are these stupid question marks ?????

I know it's up to me at the end, I feel like I'm being punked.

It hurts for me to admit that he was playing me all along but a part of me don't want to make assumption, maybe he really is a very busy man - but that's the idiot part of me talking again.

I'm willing to do whatever it takes to have us closer and be together but I'm tired. I really am and hurting in the process.

I wish we could sit and eat a bucket of ice cream together and sympathise with one another's pain and disappointment.

Maybe I'll just stop keeping in contact with him anymore, after all it seems I'm the one who initiate it - maybe it's he's way of letting me down easy (ironic) but would be better if he can just give it to me straight :(

I can hear a Rhianna song in my head with lyrics that goes like this;

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, it's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, that's alright because I like the way you lie. I like the way you lie."

Stupid love.

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