thanks so much for saving me

Submitted by Cindy (Canada), May 8, 2013 at 15:53

Thank you so much for helping me to get this courage to do what I know in my hear of heats I must do.

I have this incredible attachment to him. And part of me still thinks he truly loves me. But, most of me knows this just isn't really true. I talked to him on web cam yesterday and while he was talking to me, he was texting someone on his cell phone. Then it rang and he answered it. And a big smile came across his face and his eyes lit up. Whoever was on the other end of the phone was a woman, I just know it. That look on his face that a man only gets when a woman he loves calls him.

Then he looked up at me on the cam and blew me a kiss, making a kissy noise. He was probably blowing her a kiss and made it look like it was me he was doing it to. I just had that strong feeling that is what he was doing. Please keep emailing me, I am going to delete him, I am broken into, but I am going to delete him and I need this support, because this may kill me. I don't know if I can emotionally get through this,

I will probably feel a sense of great relief, mixed with sadness, knowing that he probably didn't really love me. Maybe he did, but I don't think so. Yet he has emailed my family telling them how much he loves me and will take care of me. Do they actually go that far as to email the family if they are lying? Yes, I know I will survive this, and be a stronger and happier person for it. But this will be so very hard, because I am willfully letting go of someone I truly loved more than life itself. The pain is almost unbearable. I will be closer to God too after this, He is the only one who can help me now. The only one. Time to get my life back. Thank you so much for knowing exactly what I am going through. You are all my guardian angels!

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